I hold her tight in my hands
And all that comes to mind
is "This is so precious"
I look out upon these plains
And only the thought of their beauty
makes it's way to the surface
I smell the scent of wind and grass
And I know it is sweetest of any
to ever happen upon

I put his cheek against my lips
And taste the dirt and sweat
that is proof of hard work done
I look up at this unforgiving sky
And can only know that I am tiny
only one in billions
I hear the birds and trees
whispering and singing
sweet nothings

I wrap my arms around him tight
And feel how small he is
"Will mommy be alright?"
I cannot look into his eyes
As I whisper the lie to save his ignorance
"I don't know"
I feel his trembling against me
as I carry him from this place
once a home

I clutch desperately to her
As I scream and let everything go
Though I know it must hurt to hear my tortured cries
I can't look at anything
Without seeing that scene before me
again and again
I still taste the blood in the air
drowning my words
pleading for time to stop

I cut into my skin
knowing this is my lifeline
to save me from the pain
I look at my scarred body
proud of my work
because my mind would not have lasted had I not
I see the picture of my family
torn and then taped back together
by my bloody hands

I'm floating in space
and I can't remember the emotion happiness
no I remember only "It was so precious"
I look for anything
yearning for someone to care for
but cannot muster the strength
Yet I cannot sense anything
though these people around me love
For me my wish was granted

And time has stopped